As followers of Christ, we are under constant scrutiny by the world. Given the current climate in the world right now, many aren’t just watching us, they are waiting to see us fail. That makes it hard to have an active and working faith in the Lord but we must so that He can be glorified in our lives. This is something I have been strongly convicted of lately. I have played it safe my entire life.Trusting in who and what I could see, touch, taste, hear, and do. A few month ago, God challenged me to trust in Him alone though.
Walking the walk, not just talking the talk
I had this experience very recently, and while I can’t share the exact details of it, I do want to share what has been happening in my life. Three times lately, God has called me to take steps of faith. Real, walking step!!! Each one bigger than the last.
In this post, I talk about the beginnings of my faith being tested and my first step. God had been nudging me for quite some time, but out of uncertainty I remained where I was. A crawling Christian. I talked a good talk about trusting God and having faith but I realize now that until recently, I have never walked in it.
I really thought I was maturing as a Christian. I figured I was at least a spiritual teenager. WRONG!!!
I have heard parents talk about having a toddler who thinks they are a teenager or having a teenager who thinks they know everything. I get it now. That’s where I was spiritually. Thinking I was grown but really, I was still a baby. Not a newborn on just milk, but still a baby. I think I may finally be in the Cheerios and Goldfish crackers stage now. Maybe even chicken if you tear it up real good. Either way, I realize that I am just now learning to walk.
I am so thankful that our Lord is a patient and loving Father, willing to guide us in taking our first steps and holding our hand while we learn (not that He ever lets it go) because those first step are scary. Kind of like walking across a tightrope blindfolded and trusting a safety net is in place to catch you if you fall. For the first time in as long as I can remember, I am trusting and obeying God alone. Depending on God alone. I realize now that I have never trusted in God for anything other than my salvation.
I have sought complete control of my life and everything in it. I didn’t even realize it. I have been a crawling control freak. If EVERYTHING didn’t go EXACTLY as I planned, I would panic. I had to be in control of every aspect of my life and environment. I have also been on a lot of anti-anxiety medication and antidepressants. I am so thankful God is patient. I am so thankful He is kind and willing to hold my hand while I learn to walk.
I also hope that He uses my journey to encourage someone else to take steps of faith. I want people watching me. I want my life to become an example of an active, working faith that points people to a loving heavenly Father. It is only happening through His love and grace. I really want God to be exalted in my life and for people to be able to look at what he’s doing for me and say “Wow, there really is a loving God and he is really wants the best for me!!”
I want to thank all of you who decided to follow me on this journey, who pray for me as I learn to walk, and who offer up encouraging words. Maybe someday I will become a great blogger but for now, I am just a country girl who wants to share her journey in learning to walk in faith and learning to treat her body as the temple of God.
I sure do love you all but God loves you so much more.